Residue - Hope Morrison AUTRALIAN AUTHOR
You already know better.
The body does it anyway.
Not because you haven't tried. Because the pattern was never in your thoughts to begin with.
You've done the therapy, read the books, sat with what you could find. And at the end of a long day, there it is again.
You understand the pattern completely. Understanding it has not changed it.
The reaction fires before you can choose. The body answers before you're asked.
You inherited things you never agreed to: the bracing, the vigilance, the responses that arrived before your words did.
You feel less connected to your body than you used to: in your sleep, your sensation, your presence with the people you love.
And underneath it all, the same quiet question keeps returning: what is wrong with me?
The answer the book opens with: nothing. You are not broken. You are adapted. And what adapted was never meant to be permanent. It's residue, and residue can be rewritten.